Day 86
Lately, I’ve been fairly overwhelmed and stressed out. You know that feeling of excitement, but also dread, when you’re making huge life choices, and you’re terrified of effing things up?
Yeah. That’s what I’m going through right now.
It’s not so much that I’m worried about completely screwing up my life, I know that things will be alright. I’m just having a hard time of convincing my mind that. I’m just completely in overdrive with thinking and overthinking, and probably making my choices seem worse (or maybe even better) than they really are. It’s gotten to the point where I’m having nightly anxiety attacks, and daily migraines. So today, I had to take a step back and breathe in some fresh air to help myself reset.
Something that I’ve been dying to do is getting back into hiking. In Utah, we are completely surrounded by mountains, and some of the best hikes are only 10 minutes away. But my problem is that I’ve completely lost my stamina and am super out of shape ever since I started nursing school. But nursing school ended 2 years ago, and I really need to get active again. I’m in my twenties, and I’m wasting my life away on my couch. I say, “NO MORE!” It’s time I take care of my body, as well as my mind.
Some of the hikes in Utah can be really difficult and extremely strenuous. And…(big news)…since I’ll be moving to Colorado in a few months, and I want to hike and bike the trails out there, I need to start getting used to big trails.
Today, I started small. I went up the Rocky Mouth Trail to the falls. This hike is a nice starter hike. It’s about a mile up, nearly 2 miles altogether. I was able to do this in 30 minutes (which is huge for me! I haven’t even been able to walk a mile in under 20 minutes in a long time. Yeah, that’s how out of shape I’ve been.), and the view up at the top is beautiful. 
There is also a fork that leads to the Bonneville Shoreline Trail. If you don’t know what that is, it’s a freaking long ass trail that leads practically all the way across the Wasatch mountains. It’s currently 100 miles long, but it’s proposed to be 280 miles once it’s finished. It will eventually stretch from the Idaho border to Nephi. I’ve only walked bits of it. I’m not adventurous enough to do the whole trail.
There are nice, large rocks off the shore that you can sit and have a little snack on. I didn’t stay too long, mostly because there were a bunch of teenagers there, and also because I had a massage to get to (;.
Nature is so refreshing. Especially when you’re anxious, it’s nice to sit outside for a bit and be reminded of the beauty in the world.
Mary Jane xx
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